Memories never fade ...

On March 31st, 2009 my guy bestfriend passed away. We were always together and we were always there for each other. He moved to california in Mid february of 2009 which really sucked for me because he was my other half my right hand my main man my brother and more importantly my bestfriend. We always told each other everything but I guess he had his reason for not telling me the biggest one. They found a tumor growing in his stomach and I had no clue. I don't know why he would keep that from me when he knew secrets didnt exist between us but things happen and even though I wish he would've told me to at least make his last few days amazing and a blast. His mom told me that's the reason they moved because he was having strong pains and they needed a hospital that specialized for it .He was the greatest bestfriend anyone could ever ask for. We'd go places together and have a blast ,we never once fought and we always made each other smile. Growing up with him was a great experience and since he knew he was going to eventually past he wrote me a letter and left it with his mom for her to give me and it said " I wish I would've told you sooner so I didn't have to hurt you now that im gone but just know im in a better place and that whenever you feel that you need me look down a little to your left in the middle of your chest where your heart is and thats where ill always be. Im going to miss you but know I love you and care for you. no matter where you are or what your doing ill be right next to you watching you and guarding your every move. I love you Bestfriend and thankyou for making the piece of my life I got to live worth it." When I read the letter my heart shattered into a million pieces and I knew that part of me was gone just like him. He had told his mom to give me his favorite shirt and that I was to keep it forever and he also left me his favorite teddy bear which was a small bear that had a heart in the middle that said I love you . For the next 6 months I spent my nights crying and remeniscing on everything we had done all the good and the bad but one day something clicked inside my head and I realized that even though he was no longer with me physically his memories were stuck in my heart forever. He showed me what a true friendship was , I loved him dearly and I still do. I miss him like no other but I know he's watching over me and guiding me as the good person he is , I miss you Erik <3 R.I.P BESTFRIEND :)