10 more days...

10 more days until school is finally over, WOW. Time went by so fast and boy am I going to miss everything that happened this year. I love the people I've gotten close to and those to whom I no longer do speak to, well let's just say it is what it is. Junior year went by flying, just yesterday was the first day of my junior year. I'm going to miss van even though it's not the greatest school in the world but I apprciate the memories and opportunities it's gave me, most of all if I didn't come here I would have met all these great people who surround me. Next year I'll be a Senior, boy does highschool pass by. I hope that I graduate on time with all my friends, It'd be dissapointing if I didn't but I believe in myself and I know I can make it on my own. I hope to one day be like my sister, she has everything going for her. She's smart and gets good grades but also has a social life and I think that's my problem that I believe my social life is more important than my school work which is wrong because I have to be someone in life. The day of tommorow I want my kids to ask me "mommy what's your job?" and my answer to be " my first job is to be your mom and my second job is a doctor or a lawyer or a teacher" something that'll give them an edge to be someone in life and even though my childhood was hard, I never want to put my kids through anything like that because as long as im living I want them to enjoy every minute of their lives and have fun to the fullest with everything they do. Im looking forward to the summer and I guess senior year too... although im scared because I don't quite yet know what I want to be I think I have enough time to figure myself out.